It Gets Better

Well heck.

Where do I even begin?

I've been trying to write a post for 3 weeks now and I just can't seem to get the hang of it.

To put it honestly, the past few months have been hard.

Back in January, I announced on Instagram that I was taking a break from posting on social media and my blog for a while. I always want my platforms to be a place people can escape to for a breath of fresh air and happiness, and I knew I wasn't in a good headspace to create that kind of content.

At the beginning of the year, I was hit by a debilitating wave of anxiety for the first time in a very long time. I felt my anxious thoughts ring out like thunder in the night and knew I needed to take some time to try and find myself again.

In February I spent a lot of time with family while I changed my anxiety medication. It wasn't an easy process, but I had so much help from loved ones.

In mid-March, I broke my left arm by slipping on ice outside of our house, and a few days later, our new 4-month-old kitten Sprout had to get emergency surgery which he is still recovering from almost 2 weeks later.

The world feels on the brink of collapse these days, and, compiled with the past 3 months, I feel like a shrivelled red rosehip at the end of winter, hanging onto a slender branch in a wind storm.

Though it has been hard, I really learned through this difficult time that It is ok to send out distress signals.

It's ok to ask for help, for company, for distractions, for hugs, and in my case ask to have someone brush and braid your hair.

In the meantime, do your best, get the sun in your eyes, cry, get your hands in the dirt, kiss your loved ones, and recover at whatever pace feels best.

I can promise you this:
After winter comes spring, and after difficult times, it always gets better.

I pray that your hearts are filled with peace even in the midst of turmoil.
I pray that you have neighbours who are willing to let you help them with their bees!
They truly are miraculous creatures!!

I'm always here to talk and I promise I'll be back here again soon.

xoxo

Chloe